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To be grown up

'your travelling but at the same time you haven't left home'

 This quote is from Paulo Coelho's book Aleph and it is a quote that makes me think about how safe and confident I feel when I have my mum by my side and when she's not there, I'm lost, I'm like a deer in the headlights and can't talk to people or do things by myself. My mum is my comfort blanket.

I so desperately want to be grown up and independent but to me, to be grown up doesn't mean having a job or a house and paying bills, to be grown up to me means feeling confident in myself, being able to speak to people with wisdom and authority in my voice to get what I want. To be grown up means having an opinion and being heard, it means standing up for myself.  
All the things I feel I lack and struggle to accomplish.
But I realise this and I see that I need to be brave and be more independent if I'm ever going to move on with my life, achieve all the things I hope to achieve in my life and feel like a confident, mature, independent, capable adult woman who knows who she is, knows what she wants and knows where she's going. It's time to finally grow up! 

          
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