Fear of uncertainty.

I wish for certainty in my life. I wish I were more certain about the things I want to do, my thoughts and the decisions I make. Do I do this, do I do that, do I go this way or that way, which way do I turn, which direction do I go in? I don't know.
I am wary of getting into something that may be a danger to me, something I will regret, something that can complicate my life. One wrong turn, that's all it takes!
I know I'm sensible and maybe a little too sensible but I feel that my uncertainty, my barriers are what keep me from making mistakes I'll end up regretting, my barriers prevent me from making bad decisions, from making that one wrong move.
But my fears are also holding me back from taking risks and following my heart and doing all the things I want to do in my life.
I realise I need God more than I think I do in order to change my heart and my anxious and fearful thoughts. I need to learn to trust that God will keep me safe and will not let harm come to me and let God guide my steps.

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