Journey towards God

The parable of the scattering of seeds in Mark 4:13-20 highlights my journey with God and in the past I was a person who heard the message and immediately received it with joy. But since I didn’t have deep roots, I didn’t last long. I fell away as soon as I had problems or I was persecuted for believing God’s word but this is no longer true for me. I have gone through some testing times but I have remained in Christ throughout.

Today I feel that I fall into the category where I hear God’s word, but all too quickly the message is crowded out by the worries of this life, the lure of wealth, and the desire for other things, so no fruit is produced. Now I know this isn't the ideal position to be in but it gives me hope that I am moving forward - slowly but surely.

I desperately want to have a more intimate relationship with God, I want to hear and accept God’s word and produce a harvest. I want to grow deep roots in my faith and be a good servent for God, this is my desire and it bothers me when people say I am half a Christian or 'call yourself a Christian' or 'that isn't very Christian of you' because it draws me back and disappoints me that I'm not where I want to be in my walk with God but it is also these comments that drive me closer to God.

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