My God

,            I wish for certainty in my life. I wish I were more certain about the things I want to do, my thoughts and the decisions I make. Do I do this, do I do that, do I go this way or that way, which way do I turn, which direction do I go in?  I don't know. I am wary of getting into something that may be a danger to me, something I will regret, something that can complicate my life. One wrong turn, that's all it takes! I know I'm sensible and maybe a little too sensible but  I feel that my uncertainty, my barriers are what keep me from making mistakes I'll end up regretting, my barriers prevent me from making bad decisions, from making that one wrong move. But my fears are also holding me back from taking risks and following my heart and doing all the things I want to do in my life. I realise I need God more than I think I do in order to change my heart and my anxious and fearful thoughts. I need to learn to trust that God will keep me s...

           Some of us need to be asked a question that requires being honest, something that needs to be brought to light without getting defensive.  Sometimes we can get so defensive when asked questions like What are you trying prove? Who are you trying to impress?  We feel attacked, judged, ashamed even when asked questions that put us on the spot and exposes a secret we're trying to hide, feelings were trying to hide, something we are trying to hide and becoming defensive about it.  Sometimes we need to let those defensive feelings go and truly look at ourselves, look at our lives   honestly and reveal the truth about who we are and the way we live our lives. Some of us need to change direction in our lives and hear from God.  I think that in today's society sin has become watered down to make it seem less of a big deal, but sin is sin and there is no pussyfooting around it, no excuses for it, no blaming anyone but yourself. Y...

                                    I met so many amazing women when I was in and out of hospital, Betsy, Margaret, Rose, Janet, Isabella and Wilma to name but a few and all had their own little quirks and things about them that I loved and found inspiring and fascinating, but I realised that hospital had become a safe haven for us all. When you have been ill and in hospital, being cared for, having people around, getting rest, the thought of going home was scary and daunting.  It may sound crazy but I felt kind of safe in hospital, no worries or responsibilities and for some - hospital was a better place to be than home. For me it was an escape from the responsibilities of running a house, I wanted to be independent and I wanted the responsibility but it had become more of a burden than a blessing lately. For Wilma, she had a husband at home with senile dementia and had been struggling t...

This passage talks to me about how we are never satisfied, how some things in our lives amount to nothing and how this can make us lose hope. Life can be hard for us sometimes but I believe that without God it can be harder and we end up just existing, but it doesn't have to be that way, if only we took more notice of God and believed.  I try to understand why bad things happen and how some people can be so poisonous to go out and commit horrific crimes and the world seems like it is in such a mess, of course this affects me but there are good people out there, doing good for the world and for others and spreading positivity and love, we just need to take a moment to notice it.  It is difficult to keep your faith in such a sinful, corrupt world, w e might lose hope in humanity sometimes and  it would be so easy to use that as an excuse to give up on God but  God teaches us that the day of judgement will come and people will receive their punishment. ...

  I cannot believe that my niece is three years old. She is so special to me and I could not imagine life without her. Everything she says, everything she does makes me love her more and I can't believe how proud I am of her. She is such a clever little girl, has a great understanding of things and  picks up things so easily. She's polite, she's confident but shy and she's a little chatterbox with a sweet tooth, just like her mummy, daddy, granny pig and auntie Casey. We all as a unit have raised a wonderful little girl with a great character that you can't help but fall in love with her. She truly is a blessing in all our lives. 

  He loved his disciples, he loved them as you love me. He protected them as you protect me. He guarded them as you guard me. He told them many things as you have told me many things. He gave them his word as you have given me. He loved them as you love me and I love you. 

From birth I have always been sick, born prematurely and deaf and by the age of eight I began having growth hormone injections to make me grow - obviously! Then I was diagnosed with Russell Silver syndrome which is a form of dwarfism and carries with it mild learning difficulties so it was a struggle growing up! Over the years I suffered with recurrent chest infections and this has followed me through to adulthood and at 21 I was hospitalised with pneumonia. I was in and out of hospital for the next few years till eventually my mum demanded something be done - as mothers do! It turned out I had a condition called IGG deficiency which is a low immune system and the reason for my chest infections and bouts of pneumonia and for this I receive a weekly infusion which I administer at home and will have to do this for the rest of my life. I had been well for four years, no pneumonia, no hospital admissions - nothing, completely healthy and happy!  Then last year I was back and...