My God

                 I think it is impossible to know who you are and what you are like as a person at 19, 20, 21 years of age and whenever someone asks what your strengths and weaknesses are I don't think a person at that age would really know the answer- at least I didn't anyway. You never really know but you never stop searching for the answers, you never stop learning or trying to understand yourself and I think a lot of pressure is put on people to make decisions about their lives without really knowing why. Trying to find your identity, in my opinion is a lifelong quest and the answers are not always definite or clear. I'm 31 and I still haven't got all the answers, I'm still soul searching. 

                 I watched a film tonight called Dreams of a Life about a 38 year old woman in London who lay dead in her flat and went unnoticed for 3 years. S he was a woman who isolated herself, who was very private and lacked trust in people. She was liked and loved by a lot of people but didn't have many if any friends. She seemed shy and reserved and didn't talk much. She had lost touch with people that cared about her and then found dead, alone in her flat for 3 years with the TV still on and no one came to check she was alright.   I'm not saying this could happen to me but in a way I feel like we are pretty similar in personality and although our lives are so different we could be the same.  I can relate  to her, her isolation,  her shyness,  her lack of friends, how she was a private person I can relate to it all.  I' m a nervous person; especially when it comes to talking. I am not a talker, I am an ob...

                 I have travelled to a few amazing places in the world; Italy, France, London, America and I've seen some wonderful sights but it amazes me to think that  there is still so much world to see outside of Scotland, a world so different to what I'm used to.  so much I still haven't seen and it's crazy to think that there are millions and trillions of people in the world that I will never know but they are out there and they exist as I do. There are streets I will never walk down, restaurants I will never eat at, sights and sounds I will never see or hear because this world is so vast and I so small but I am so grateful to have seen what I have and may the journeys continue.