My God

                  Truth 1: The fear will never go away as long as you continue to grow. Truth 2: The only way to get rid of the fear of doing something is to go out and do it. Truth 3: The only way to feel better about yourself is to go out and do it. Truth 4: Not only are you going to experiance fear whenever you're on unfamiliar territory, but so is                        everyone else. Truth 5: Pushing through fear is less frightening than living with the underlying fear  that comes from a      feeling of helplessness.

                  Today signifies the birth of our Lord Jesus and on this day I honour you Lord, my prayers are dedicated to you Lord Jesus, the presents I receive I give thanks to you, the food I eat and the drink I consume I toast it all to you. Know Lord that I honour you and love you, not only on this day but all days. Amen

         'Smile at each other, smile at your wife, smile at your husband, smile at your children, smile at each other - it doesn't matter who it is - and that will help you to grow up in greater love for each other'. Mother Therasa                                 I have learned how important it is to smile and that in life, a smile can go a long way. It's not a hardship to smile, even if we don't feel like smiling it can instantly lift our mood and make things seem better.  A smile can change a person's impression of us as we come across more friendlier and approachable rather than miserable and moody therefore people are more than likely to react positively towards us than negatively. A few times I'll be walking and someone will be walking towards me and perhaps they look a little dodgy, a bit menacing and maybe best to avoid looking them in the eye but instead I smile a...

                   Sometimes we can put on a brave face, a mask to hide our true feelings.  We can be so full of bravado or perhaps quiet and withdrawn to try to deceive people into thinking we are in control, we are sorted, we don't need anyone, but underneath that mask of deception we are a mess and life is in tatters.  Even the toughest of men or the angriest of teenagers, or the shyness of women have something that will strike a nerve and make them crumble, the mention of families or children, whatever it may be, we all have something that will reveal our softer more vulnerable side, our real feelings and it takes a lot of trust, comforting and patience and sensitivity to see beneath the anger, hate, and violence, the timidity and solitude and when we are faced with that which makes us crumble  we become like little children and let the mask slip, we allow  our weakness and vulnerability shine through and we are n...

                 I think it is impossible to know who you are and what you are like as a person at 19, 20, 21 years of age and whenever someone asks what your strengths and weaknesses are I don't think a person at that age would really know the answer- at least I didn't anyway. You never really know but you never stop searching for the answers, you never stop learning or trying to understand yourself and I think a lot of pressure is put on people to make decisions about their lives without really knowing why. Trying to find your identity, in my opinion is a lifelong quest and the answers are not always definite or clear. I'm 31 and I still haven't got all the answers, I'm still soul searching. 

                 I watched a film tonight called Dreams of a Life about a 38 year old woman in London who lay dead in her flat and went unnoticed for 3 years. S he was a woman who isolated herself, who was very private and lacked trust in people. She was liked and loved by a lot of people but didn't have many if any friends. She seemed shy and reserved and didn't talk much. She had lost touch with people that cared about her and then found dead, alone in her flat for 3 years with the TV still on and no one came to check she was alright.   I'm not saying this could happen to me but in a way I feel like we are pretty similar in personality and although our lives are so different we could be the same.  I can relate  to her, her isolation,  her shyness,  her lack of friends, how she was a private person I can relate to it all.  I' m a nervous person; especially when it comes to talking. I am not a talker, I am an ob...